Real Happiness (Doesn’t Mean Not Crying)

I had a meltdown yesterday morning. I felt like too much and not enough. I am doing a lot at work and in my personal life. Saturday morning, I had to wake up at 5:30 to fit in a bit of peace (yoga for 45 minutes) before the track meet. After 6 weeks of coaching, I had to bring all the food and make sure all my athletes made their events.

Do I have enough food? Are the snacks good enough? I’m so tired and I don’t want to waste all day there.

I felt like too much and not enough.

When I got there, it wasn’t as high pressured as it seemed. The chain of 30 emails made it seem intense. I was organized enough to ensure my kids made their events. But what made it was how happy the kids were and how much they cheered each other on.

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“Don’t let your hair get in your way.”

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A couple hours later, I met up with some of the greatest people I know for a food and wine event.

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Sure, there were drinks flowing, but I was also unequivocally happy. We chatted and danced without fear of looking dumb.

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This isn’t new. I’m a usually positive person, but what’s new is how happy I am. Two of my friends commented on how pure and genuine my joy is and I’ve caught myself in it.

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“I go to nature to be soothed and healed and have my senses put in order.”

To combat the hangover, we went on a gorgeous but easy hike to Big Horn Mine.

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It was the perfect ending to the weekend. I took a nice nap too!

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